Week #3

I still see no progress. We have had another challenging week emotionally. I hope that the dermatologist will have an idea of what can be done next. She mentioned acne surgery. Something needs to be done about the cysts that will not go away on his right cheek, they are now more swollen than I have ever seen them.

His dad has had the week off for Thanksgiving. After this week he now knows fully what we go through during a full week. The looks and whispers of the public is frustrating and to watch our son try to become invisible by hiding behind me, combing his hair nervously down over his forehead or even just closing his eyes as if he were able to transport away from the uncomfortable situation....IS BREAKING MY HEART!!!

At times I want to shout out that we are doing everything we can do, that we are good parents and our son doesn't have some strange disease. Instead, I just find myself crying with frustration during the day while my son is in school. I am getting impatient and beg to see some sort of improvement.

Week #2

This week my son started really complaining about discomfort and dryness of his face. He says he tries to put lotion on, but it still hurts to rub. I have noticed some drying around his mouth and a lot more white heads. I do think his week started out on a high note however, because Monday he came home and told me that a boy on the bus said he thought he saw improvement around his eyes. I do notice that his face is a lot less red in between blemishes, so maybe by next week we will really see some positive change.

Unfortunately, by Thursday his week went all to hell when someone on the bus accidentally scratched his cyst on the right side of his face. He came home very upset and it was bleeding pretty bad. This triggered frustration and he asked me what he was going to do if Accutane didn't work for him. I told him it was too early to be thinking about that and to give Accutane at least six weeks before we panic. ??? I really don't know at what point we should know if its working or not...

Also this week my son found that soaking his face in cool water feels good. So every day after school he soaks for a few minutes. I am not sure if that is good for his skin, I will make a note to ask his dermatologist.

My neighbor, who is a nurse, told me the doc she works for is starting a new acne program. She is bringing me the CD infomercial for me to review. She asked the doctor if this program could be used in conjunction with Accutane and he said yes. So as soon as I review the information I will post the name and my thoughts about the product.

Week #1

Well our first week on Accutane went well, I think. After my son's third dose I was called to school because of a severe back ache. He said it hurt so bad he nearly got sick. This back ache lasted a few days and there was no evidence that it was drug related.

His face is starting to look a bit redder and seems like there are a lot more white heads. He mentioned his skin is starting to hurt around the back of his neck. He thinks its because he is starting to get dry skin.

The cyst on his right cheek looks bigger and I am afraid he might have to have it injected at his next dermatology appointment. Lets hope not! I hate seeing him in so much pain!!

Day #1

Today my son took his first dose of Accutane. His prescribed dose is one 40mg pill a day.

My son is 13 year old and started getting acne when he turned 12. Over this past year my son has seen several dermatologist and has used many different products and antibiotics to try to halt the progression of his acne. After exhausting all other avenues I was told Accutane was my next step. I was given the iPledge brochure and was told to not let the material scare me.

When I returned home and began reading the iPledge information I was scared speechless. To ignore such warnings went against everything I stood for as a mother. I went through the next several days with a mix of emotions from anger to sadness. I talked to everyone that I knew to get different perspectives. Most of the reactions I received were, what I call, safe responses. I had several say the side effects aren't worth the risk, and several who just agreed that I had a hard decision to make. My husband without reading the material said we just had to do this for our son. After reading the material he quickly said he would support any decision I made. I think this is a typical response from most fathers. I think there is an unspoken rule about the role mothers play when it comes to important medical decisions that concern their children. Mothers seem to know best. Really? Why? Because we were pregnant for nine months and we were primary care givers for the first several years? I think a mother's intuition is very powerful, but foreseeing what a chemical will do to their baby's body?...just not possible.

I had week to make up my mind and by the fifth day I had decided it was a no. After all kids tend to blame their parents for all kinds of things that happen to them in life. Right? I just couldn't stand the thought that he would grow up resenting my decision. my decision....

Day six I decided that my son was old enough and mature enough to be let in on my concerns about taking Accutane. I gave him a general idea about the side effects. I let him know that I was struggling with a verdict and that my first thought was to say no. I asked him how people treated him at school. He told me there were a few kids that make comments, but also added that these same people pick on others too. "It doesn't bother me mom"... that is what he told me as he slowly hung his head. He lied and I knew it. At that moment I realized I had no other option. I knew my son was miserable outside the comforts of home. Just last week I watched him in front of the mirror lightly applying medication to his face, he was crying, for even his light touch hurt. I realized too that he had stopped going to the grocery store with me and always opted to stay home when he had the choice. What I wanted so desperately to blame as normal teenage behavior was not, at least not completely. I thought back to the past few months and really started analyzing our past conversations. I realized his acne was consuming him. Not just his precious face, but his character, self worth and esteem.

I asked my son what he would say if I told him I had changed my mind. He said he trusted my decision. He also added that he would probably be just fine. I smiled and gave him a hug. He is a great kid!

So our decision was made. He would start his five month regimen. I did make some rules before solidifying our decision however, rules my son had to agree to before allowing treatment. 1. we were going to start a low sugar and carbohydrate diet 2. there would be no more "shoot-em-up" games, movies or T.V. shows 3. write a health log every week which explained how he was feeling and his eating habits

He didn't exactly like the idea of not being able to play his games, but he agreed that five months out of his life is not going to kill him.

I am obviously not a doctor, but there are immediate health concerns about my son...
1. he has mild asthma
2. he has had pneumonia twice
3. family members have/had diabetes, high cholesterol, stomach issues, depression etc.
4. his kidneys don't process sodium properly
5. he is an extremely skinny kid (66in/97lbs)
6. when he gets nervous he usually gets stomach or head aches
Knowing all this and Accutane's side effects you can see why its even more nerve racking. How am I going to know, for instance, his stomach ache is nerves rather than a side effect? I don't know...one day at a time.....

My goal is to write here every week and post pictures of my son's progress. I hope every week I have something positive to report....